OH man... I WAS SUCH A LOSER MAN... LOSER WITH A BIG L!!!
Seriously if you ask me now, I also dunno what I do that for... I even wrote down the dates after taking the tissue from him. (super roll eyes o_____O)
My friends asked me how come I didnt tell him that I like him and ask him out, because they were so sure I could get him.
But my convictions were that a girl should never ever go after a guy (a conviction that still stands now)
So I sadly collect all the tissues and placed them nicely in an envelope.
Then came the bad news............. we wont be in the same chinese class anymore after Sec 3. (somehow I believe because the teachers thought that out class people were a bad influence to the class)
I was so so sad, but there is nothing I can do, and the school term is coming to an end. We werent be seeing each other anymore after sec 3. *SOBS*
--> depressed... My good friends, seeing me so sad and depressed, offered to help me take his number and to ask him out. BUT, being so stubborn and prideful, I told them I will rather die than get his number and let him know that I like him.
The last day of the semester arrived. I was beyond consolation.
Then one of my good friends had an idea.
It was the most retarded idea of all eternity but being equally retarded AND desperate, I agreed to let her do it.
The Plan is this: She will go to him and ask him to lend her his LIBRARY card (she knows him as well) because her library card is full and she really needs to use the card.
The lame part comes: She will then pass the card to me during the holidays and I will meet him to return his card during the holidays.
Therefore she will need to get his number so that I can call him to arrange a meeting.
**yG8IGBGHEDI&* b*&t( shOGH/HGgigKG87UG9g*ig9GIGIg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh man.... this is such a ridiculous request that any stupid person will know that it is a cover up for something.
What makes it even more embarrassing that she forgot to bring along a pen to write down his number (that era only the minority carries hp) and then pull me from somewhere to write the number down.
I think i muttered something like "er.. she is always like that" and tried to act irritated. His face was so amused I could die right there. -______-
This is how I ended my Sec 3, with the number of GFL and his library card.
Well at least is better than tissue papers.. hahahahahhahahaha.
But being such a timid and SHY person, I do not dare to call him... so I did another STUPID thing. I asked another good friend of mine (whom GFL dun even know) to call him and say if you want your library card back, call Michelle. So my friend gave him my number. (machiam like threatening people)
That was one of the most idiotic move... i ended spending most of my holidays waiting for the phone call that didnt come. I slowly concluded that he is totally not interested in me, otherwise he would have jumped at the chance to call me and ask me out. I also concluded that he was a stupid fool to reject me... hahahahhahahahaahhaa... yeah i was THAT retarded in the past.
THE TURNING POINT
However, its also during that time I went to church and got saved!!
WOOOOHOOOOO *CLAPS* CHEERS*
Very quickly I was distracted by the new environment around me... friends, excitement of knowing the Lord etc.
I also saw many of his NCC friends in church and but he wasnt there (to my disappointment). Therefore I just pass the library card to one of his friends as a symbol of giving up on him. That was supposingly the end of my few months crush on GFL.
The new year came, and as promised we had our own respective chinese classes and so didnt really get to see each other much. In fact if I remember correctly, I don't even see him at all. Sad as I was, but I have gotten over him and was behaving much normal (thank God for sound mind...haha)
As I was rather free at the beginning of the school term, I often stayed back in school to read and do my homework (yes I have repented) and wait for time to pass before I can go for my other activities.
As usual one day as I was waiting for time to pass before I can go for my cell group meeting, he came and talk to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(Yes it is always good to go for CELL GROUP MEETING, pls join one today!)
It was a huge shock, as I was quite deep in reading something.
My heart pounded very fast but being very well trained in acting cool, I asked about his library card (again..duh..super roll eyes) and what he is doing in school at that time.
Sensing that he is about to go home, my fast mind quickly devised a plan for us to spend more time together. I asked him how to get to paya lebar mrt from school (because I know he will take a bus that will pass through the mrt)
He tried to describe, but me being such a direction idiot, he offered to show me by taking the bus together with me.
LOL... indeed one will become smarter once they know God. hahaha...
We chatted quite alot about school while on the way and he was really helpful to point out the obvious MRT station to me and I smiled all the way to cell group meeting that night. In fact I believe I literally hopped my way to the house.
ONE OF MICH's HAPPIEST MOMENT OF HER LIFE... was on a SATURDAY late morning... as I was waiting to go Service after my Art Class. (ONCE AGAIN GOING SERVICE IS A GOOD THING)
Like the other time he came to talk to me, I was stunned by his sudden appearance right in front of me (but in the past like never lei...hmmm)
We talked for awhile before he popped the question about the latest movie (Meet Joe Black), and whether if I have seen it.
Being trained in church (for 1 month plus... I even won the most win-some award that time!), I asked him if he wants to see with me even before he asked me!
I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOO COOL LOR!
And so, our first date is fixed!
I made the so called first move to ask him out. (Though until now he argued that he was the one who asked me out.... SURE BO?~!??!)
The date was great and was very natural. We chatted very easily and enjoyed ourselves very much that evening. He didnt do very much for me but I was contented as this day was what I have been waiting for since Sec 3.
THE START OF MY FIRST RELATIONSHIP
And also ever since that date, he will come and look for me EVERY recess to eat with me and asked me out many times in the week (library or go makan)... and eventually he will fetch me to school everyday (even though he stayed about an hour away from me) and we became a couple! wooohoo!!
But he never asked me to be his gf formally and nothing spectacular happened to headstart this relationship.
But it was a wonderful and beautiful experience for the both of us and sometimes we will talk about it to laugh (esp at my foolish-ness)
Though we are no longer together, we still remain good friends (until now!) and he is also serving actively in church now :)
GURU's definition
Once again, let's marvelled at the Great Guru...
What is love to me? Well, it is very simple really
Love is...
... to know that there is someone there for me
... to have the extra boost of confidence because i know there's always someone supporting me
... to dare to fail knowing that there's someone who is still proud of me
... to be outrageously proud because there's someone who thinks that i am the greatest thing ever known to mankind
... to be as ridiculous and crazy but still considered cute and adorable
... when time flies when i am with him
... when angels flies when i am with him
... the first thing i see when i am awake
... the last thing i see before i go to sleep
To me, what I have described above is the most wonderful thing that anyone can experience.
And the good news is all of us can and should feel as good no matter who we are.
To end this entry... will like to close with a question to all:
Are you in love with God?
If your answer is:"How would i know?", you may look at the above definitions for some clues.
If you answer is:"Why should I?", all I can say is you will never really lived until you have.
"If it is destined that i will not find my other half in my lifetime, i will not regret, knowing that i have already truly love and be loved by the One Who is love."
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P.S
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!
JESUS IS THE REASON FOR THIS CHRISTMAS SEASON!!!
DO SPREAD A LITTLE LOVE AROUND!!!
GOD BLESS YOU!!!
P.P.SStay Tune to my next entry on "Choosing the Right Toy"
